Sunday, October 19, 2008
Beautiful Sky ...as the growing up process proceeds with time, so does the way i view things slowly changes. life is fragile. within minutes and even seconds, drastic changes can occur. it's beyond comprehension, beyond what the human mind and perceive. however, the me right now, is just taking life as it is. dreams are still dominating my mind. how reality is something i wish did not exist, yet i'm unable to break away from it since it's how life is meant to be. i guess sometimes, it's good to have breaks here and there, somewhere to go where it's new and fresh to you, that you feel fits you dreams or ideals to free your mind from the stress and expectations that not only society has of you, but what expectations you youself have.
expectations are scary. it can drive people up corners and break even the strongest person. but with each hurdle one successfully overcome, so does the strength to meet these expectations increases. but, i guess at the end of the day, i just wanna live a happy life free of stress, worries and anxiety, and do the things that i love, things that will make me happy. circumstances may restrict people, but i guess i'm being restricted now, with no other roads to take. but it's not all that bad. i just wish i had more time to myself, time to just relax and stare into space, let my mind run free and imagination overflow. but this could be escaping from reality. the conflicts in my life ...
well, for now at least, i'll just have to do my part as a student well, study for tests and doing my work. that's the biggest load that's causing me to wanna run away. but being who i am, i guess i'll just carry on. as the journey progresses, i guess somehow or rather, the courage within me will also increase. then at that time, i'll have the strength to carry the load, such that it won't be heavy anymore. cos in this strength and courage that i'll possess, God is the main factor, the hand that supports me and the light that guides me.
i must not have doubts. just walk with faith.
love,
cheryn ...
posted at 10/19/2008 09:20:00 pm
